ROBERT
SERVICE KEPT ME COMPANY DURING MY ADOLESCENT YEARS
by
Habeeb Salloum
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The cold south
Saskatchewan winter wind, like a razor-sharp knife stung my cheeks
as I urged my old mare on. Through
a blowing snowstorm, I was making my weekly round along a five
mile long trapline. Yet,
I felt content. What
I earned from the skins of rabbits and weasels was the only
spending money I would see during my early teens.
To forget the searing
cold, as my horse struggled through the blowing snow, I recited
out loud into an empty expanse of space the poems of Robert
Service, through the years, my favourite bard.
All during that day, the world around me became a land of
fantasy and I lived with Service on the frozen landscape of the
Yukon.
With not a soul for
miles around, at times, I could hear my voice echoing through the
piercing wind as I paraphrased the words of Service, describing
Canada's North:
"This is the law
of the Yukon, and ever she makes it plain:
Send not your foolish
and feeble; send me your strong and your sane-
Strong for the red
rage of battle; sane for I harry them sore;..."
By the time I came to the conclusion of the poem, I had
become almost as
one
with Service and his world as the gripping words of his poem
The Law of the Yukon fell from my lips:
"This is the law of the Yukon, that only the strong
shall thrive;
That surely the weak
shall perish, and only the Fit survive.
Dissolute, dammed and
despairful, crippled and palsied and slain,
This is the will of the
Yukon,- Lo, how she makes it plain!..."
Near the end of the trapline, the storm became a gentle
breeze. On every side,
the landscape appeared to be like a large ocean covered with endless
waves of snow. The
atmosphere had become crystal clear, but the bitter cold, seemingly
had intensified. It was
truly a living scene from the Arctic frozen terrain.
With two long-dead
weasels tied behind me to the saddle, I made my way back through the
deep snow. Of course,
at that time, the suffering of these animals in the jaws of my traps
and their subsequent cruel death, did not bring a pang of regret.
Like most of my fellow teen trappers, I was only thinking of
the few cents the weasel skins would bring.
As my old mare plodded
along, the winter scene around me, tailor-made for an artist's brush
- that is if an artist was sitting in the warm indoors and surveying
the snow-covered landscape - did not entrance me.
My thoughts were still with Service and his poems.
Wiping the icicles formed from the steam of my breath along
the edges of the parka hood, I thought of the words in his poem
The Cremation of Sam McGee:
"Talk of your
cold! through the parka's fold it stabbed like a driven nail.
If our eyes we'd close,
then the lashes froze till sometimes we couldn't see..."
I
could literally hear Service speak as he continues:
"It's the cursed
cold, and it's got right hold till I'm chilled clean through the
bone...
That night as I slept
near the coal and wood stove which, during the long winter months,
barely kept our home warm, I fell asleep, repeating again and again:
"There are strange
things done in the midnight sun
By the men who moil for
gold;
The Arctic trails have
their secret tales that make your blood run cold..."
Yet, it was not only on
the trapline or reminiscing in my bed that I remembered the verses
of Robert Service. The
first time I walked into the Neville Hotel beer parlour - of course
I was under age and told to depart - the atmosphere brought to my
mind The Shooting of Dan McGrew.
Walking out of the door, a bearded farmer on an edging table
snickered as we passed. "What
you doing here boy?" His
looks, the bar room scene and my love of Service's poems seemed to
combine as I walked down the town's unpaved streets remembering the
words of that poem:
"There's men that
somehow just grip your eyes, and hold them hard like a spell;
And such was he, and he
looked to me like a man who had lived in hell;
With a face most hair,
and the dreary stare of a dog whose day is done,
As he watered the green
stuff in his glass, and the drops fell one by one..."
I was near sixteen when
the Second World War began. After
applying to take a machinist course offered to young men who desired
to work in the war factories, I was accepted and, in a few weeks,
found myself in the city of Moose jaw.
During the day I attended classes, but when school finished,
I walked the town's streets, enthraled by the sights and sounds of
the largest city I had ever seen. To a farm boy who never left his parent's farm, it was a
world of splendour and excitement.
Still, there was the
loneliness of a strange city. However,
my forlorn days were alleviated by Service's poems.
To every incident and in every nook, I would see a connection
with Service's verses.
Walking one day into a
church, I was intrigued with a painting of an innocent-looking
Madonna. Immediately,
these lines by Service in his poem My Madonna came to mind:
"I hailed me
a woman from the street,
Shameless, but, oh, so
fair!
I bade her sit on the
model's seat
And painted her sitting
there.
I hid all trace of her heart unclean;
I painted a babe at her
breast;
I painted her as she
might have been
If the Worst had been
the Best..."
Sometime later, during
an evening stroll in the heart of town where the ladies of the night
plied their trade, a young woman, enticingly dressed, smiled,
inviting me into a doorway. Never
having been exposed to this aspect of city life until that day, I
quickly moved on. Nevertheless,
her alluring image would not fade away. For days I was haunted by Service's words in his verse The
Harpy:
"I paint my
cheeks, for they are white, and cheeks of chalk men hate;
Mine eyes with wine I
make them shine, that man may seek and sate;
With overhead a lamp of
red I sit me down and wait..."
Subsequently, I have
roamed the four corners of the world, from the snows of northern
Canada to the deserts of Africa and the jungles of South America and
the Far East. Yet, I
have never forgotten Service's poetry.
His mesmerizing ballads still captivate me.
At times, I fantasize that perhaps these lines of his poem The
Men Who Don't Fit In were written especially for me:
"There's a race of
men that don't fit in,
A race that can't stay
still;
So they break the
hearts of kith and kin,
And they roam the world
at will.
They range the field
and they rove the flood,
And they climb the
mountain's crest;
Theirs is the curse of
the gypsy blood,
And they don't know how
to rest...
Habeeb Salloum
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